My Hell

[Shadow Dragon]

I will put this here because of the one bad word. I will also say (because one lady who read it got a little creeped out thinking that I felt this way) this is a point of veiw poem. Coming from the point of view of an insane person being studied by a psychiatrist.




Just who do you think you are
You think you know me
Think you’ve seen enough
You’ve seen all there is to see

Your mind will never comprehend
I’m not in those books you read
You might as well take your study elsewhere
You will never know me

You’ll try to crawl inside my head
You’ll try to break into my hell
You think you can fix me
You think you know me so well

But here inside my head
This is my world you can’t touch
You think you could change it
You think you know so much

This is my black hell
And I don’t want it fixed
Don’t bother trying to pry your way in
With your psychiatric tricks

I don’t want to leave my hell
I live here purely by my choices
I don’t want to stop the madness
I don’t want to silence the voices

You can’t fix it to your liking
You have yet to understand
I’m twisted and insane
And I don’t give a damn

You don’t understand
And you never will
So just put the fucking straps back on
And put me back inside my cell

Because this is my black hell
And you aren’t welcome here
I will never come around
I’m a permanent resident here

I don’t want to leave my hell
I’m here purely by my choices
I don’t want to stop the madness
I don’t want to silence the voices

I know it baffles you…

[jeannerené]

Shadow Dragon,

... emotionality is strong and expressive. I like the defiant edge and the aggressive outrage toward the psychiatrist. Can one ever assume to understand or know what goes on inside another mind? To a degree I am sure, but completely .... no I don't think so.

I'm not sure why one would get creeped out ........ I think this is a very honest and vulnerable write ... and I enjoyed reading it....

.... looking forward to reading more ...

...jeanne...

[Shadow Dragon]

Thank you. For some reason, not the respnse I expected. Poetry is not one of my better writing skills (although I end up with it in my head and have to write it). I expected more along the lines of "Why the heck are you among us?" This is the first time I have ever put my poetry in front of others who write poetry. Guess I was a bit timid about how it might be recieved.

[Ashley]

I love it! I think you did a wonderful job on this! I can relate to the speaker in a way and I have some close friends who i coulda swore have been saying that. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful write!

~Ash

[humanity]

very good. having worked and shared my life with people who feel that way . i woud say you nailed it.

humanity

[Shadow Dragon]

Thank you. Personality number 11(who writes this type of poetry) is rather insane and twisted herself. She loves to drive me from bed in the middle of the night so that the ideas she comes up with while I'm sleeping can be written down.